The darkest moments of My life

Well 2nd time writing on my own blog which I still had nt much idea on how to use it...with a heavy feeling on my heart which prompt me in using this....

with regards to my topics, 2008 had been the darkest moments of my life, there are nt much of happi which is overshadowed by dark moments. heres what I have to share with you on my life (pratically i dun think people give a damn also)

First, i start of with family ties...I regret not going to my grandma house during the weekend as she had left us this year going to a better place. frankly speaking, i tot she will recover as on the day of her death. doc allow her to be discharge. anyway thts life....also i had not been able to attend her cremation as i am busy attending my revision lecture. I tot of giving it a miss but lecture too impt as it represent the most important part of my exam...

Secondly, let me move to my studies, I had high expectations of my exams that i would graduate this year. My hopes was further raised whereby after i finish my audit exam which i dun think i will fail ba. But then heaven came crashing down for me in my advanaced management and corporate reporting...practise so hard but questions came out in the most awkward manner. now i could only pray that i will be able to pass at least 2 papers.

Thirdly, in job wise...still quite happy with my job as mention in my last blog. now came the end of the year and promotion is around the corner. latest news i heard was only 6 people will be promoted. looks like my chances of making it is slim as there are 12 people vying for the position.lets hope that i will be able to make it to the final 6.

Financial wise, i had been in a very bad shape. I consider myself to be a failure in terms of financial. not able to save due to my heavy burden on my studies and without saving, i could do a lot of things that people in my age do. i felt so useless at times as i had to save and scrimp to make months end.

Last but not least is my relationship. the only happy moments that i had is the days i spend with her on taiwan. other than that, my relationship now is on the rock.it is so fragile that it could easily crack.spend some serious tot on it that i nearly wanna end it as i am too tired to carry on. but nevertheless i plucked up the rest of my energy to save the relationship. well i know she had her own blog and she had wrote some unhappy things in her blog which i seldom visit to let her have some privacy.i know some of things in the relationship, i am in the wrong and i am willing to change. I know i am a bit stingy but now you know my financial situations, i hope you can realli understand. i try to change for you but you sound unmoved or still duno on what to do. i reali hope you can make up your mind and decide about it. cause saving the relationship alone is kinda of tiring and there will be no purpose for me to carry on saving. right now i can be accomodating, trying to acede to your requests even though i am in a very bad shape. i hate it when you sound so sad about receiving a less valuable gifts from me...i also feel bad but thats the best that i can offer right now. i duno how long can i still be accomodating if you are not going to make any real effort in saving it and also i duno whether you know abt it, for after farenheit concert, you have hurt my feelings once again.

alright not going to say anymore., as i duno what to say about my shitty life. maybe i should just leave this place and suffer my life alone. back to work right now.